Guatemala City – Cristina Yaqui was 19 years old when her husband Simon Saq’boch was abducted by the Guatemalan military from the municipality of Patzun in the Guatemalan Department of Chimaltenango in 1984. Yaqui, now 53, never saw him again.
“He always remains in my mind,” said Yaqui, a Maya Kaqchikel woman and a member of the Mutual Support Group, an organisation founded in the 1980s to assist family members in locating their loved ones disappeared by the Guatemalan military during the country’s‘s internal armed conflict.
“We do not know what the military did with him,” she told Al Jazeera. “Others have found their loved ones [in mass graves]. Maybe they took him to another place.”
During the war, Yaqui also lost her father, uncle, cousin, and both of her parent-in-laws.
The Guatemalan internal armed conflict raged between 1960 and 1996, killing an estimated 200,000 people, disappearing 45,000 and displacing over one million people.
Yaqui searched from town to town, at military bases and police stations in the neighbouring regions, only to be met with disinterest from the police and soldiers.
“We searched and searched, but couldn’t find anything,” she said. “They didn’t even attend to us. We returned home without anything,” she said, pausing before adding, “There is no justice.”
‘We are still afraid today’
More than three decades later, she is still searching for her loved ones.
“We are tired of continuing to struggle and struggle without an answer,” she said. “We were displaced and filled with fear. We are still afraid today,” she added.
On Monday, Yaqui, and hundreds of survivors of the Guatemalan internal armed conflict marched through Guatemala City in commemoration of the national day of the dignification of the victims of the internal armed conflict and to reject the proposed reforms to the National Reconciliation law. Other towns across the country participated as well.
The day of commemoration for the victims of the war was established following the signing of the Peace Accords in 1996 as a day to remember those affected by the war.
The march also commemorates the 20th anniversary of publishing findings of the United Nations-backed Commission for Historical Clarification, The Memory of Silence.
The commission determined that the Guatemalan military was responsible for 93 percent of the atrocities – including forced disappearances, massacres, and torture – and the fighters were responsible for three percent. Responsibility for the remaining four percent was not determined.
Furthermore, the commission determined that 83 percent of the victims were indigenous Maya, while 17 percent were non-indigenous. As a result of these findings, the commission concluded that acts of genocide occurred during the war.
The proposed reform would extend amnesty to military officials accused of war crimes. The law is set to be debated in the second round of discussion on Wednesday.
During the march, organisations attempted to deliver letters to congressional representatives rejecting the amnesty law.
“We cannot permit [that the law is] applied,” Rigoberta Menchu, the 1992 Nobel Laureate and survivor of the internal armed conflict, told Al Jazeera.
“We have many means in the courts to stop it,” she said. “This is a new opportunity of struggle that we have.”
Unable to ‘forget what happened’
Most of those gathered outside the country’s Supreme Court to begin the march were affected by the war and have spent decades demanding justice for their loved ones.
Maria Salanic, 52-years-old, stood outside the Supreme Court building holding a photo of her older brother, Manuel.
She was 17-years-old in 1984 when her then 18-year-old brother, who was completing his studies to be a primary school teacher, was forcibly abducted by the military in a night raid at the family’s home in Guatemala City in search of weapons. There were no weapons.
Manuel was tortured in the family’s home with electricity before his abduction.
“We didn’t hear anything more about my brother until the Military Diary was released in 1999,” Salanic told Al Jazeera.
The Military Diary was a list of 183 people who disappeared by the Guatemalan Military between 1983 and 1985. While their names appear on the list, few of the remains of the disappeared have been recovered.
“The truth is that is this a cycle that we have not been able to close,” Salanic said, holding back tears. “It still hurts. We will not ever forget him,” she added.
“We are not able to forgive [the military] or forget what happened.”
As the Guatemalan Congress pursues the amnesty law, families of the disappeared continue to demand a law that would set up a commission to search for those still missing. The law has remained in discussion in Congress for 12 years.
“We have the right to rise up to demand justice for our dear family members,” Yaqui said.